Never Ending Journey: A Percent Left to Hope

Never Ending Journey: A Percent Left to Hope: Walking at the right direction is the best part of your life. We thought being with someone is what we always dreamed of but unfortunatel...

A Percent Left to Hope

Walking at the right direction is the best part of your life. We thought being with someone is what we always dreamed of but unfortunately doin things we haven’t done yet is the best.

I’m just 24 years old, on the other hand my world ventures a lot counting from history. I really want to be someone someday soon. I’ve been through heartaches, so much heartaches. It seems that fate made me stronger than no one can ever imagined. Maybe they say that all goes through your personal decisions and lately a result of failure or success. Well, I made it from failure to where I am now. Dear, this life is so much difficult. I’m just the only child and I can find myself a very weird one. Time flies so fast for me that it seems to be going way too far from the least I expected.

I’m religious and committed to my God. The fact that it’s the only thing I hold on to. Those experiences molded me to be tough with whatever challenges may pass through. I thought life was very ungrateful to me ‘cause what I wanted and whenever I’m comfortable doin’, I flop. So hard for me to deal with it every now and then. I thought everything will be as easy as everybody’s telling me to. Under the air of pressure in life we always bear in mind that love is the best thing existing. Regrettably it wasn’t that good to me. I found the best peace and happiness alone and no one in this world. I love the feeling of being free rather than to be with someone whom we’re unsure if they stay forever.

Flying like a bird through the air, walking with no chains and seeing without blinding your spots are like the best scenes I can describe in my life. I’ve been hurt for so many times and I don’t want to let anyone do that again to me. I’m vulnerable, indeed I should say I dropped my heart to countless of guys. I want to throw a vase in front of their faces but it seems it’s best to toss it in front of the mirror. Not to blame anyone of being hurt but myself. Crossing fingers not to go around the bush and end of doing the same mistakes again. Baby girl, I know the solutions, it’s just I don’t know how to start implementing it. Then again, from a 20-day practice of staying alone and positive, I found my way out.

Finding someone new to replace the other one is never ever the best solution I can apply. It was applied and obviously never worked out. Probably the best way for me to do it, is not to do what makes me comfortable and easy. So ever since I started making commitments with someone I loose myself badly. The worst sentiment you could ever experience. The effect is, you can’t get out that easily. I don’t know why we made love as a fun thing to do. Maybe I lose it to a person whose not the right one for me. I’m being unsure of what’s perfect and right these days. By all means I’m losing hope.

The only one that can help me is myself to get my ass up from the emotions that this heart and soul drives me to. Maybe running w

as not a good practice, but facing it with a complete self-control is the answer to my worries. No matter how painful it is, I need to fight my own battle. The clash that no one should be involved. I need no one in this world until someone shows me what perfect and right be. For now, let me handle my own insights. I’m hopeless but a percent left to hope that soon I may have the exact one.